My other one of the last poems of 2007. The other one is 'Melancholy Of A Poet'. I wanted to upload this earlier but I got into some technical difficulties. So, here it is posted in the year 2008.

This poem is a bit deep for common understanding. Some people will interpret it differently. It's actually a continuity of 'Anti-social'. But it's from a much broader perspective. Some people interpret this poem as a form of regret but it's actually about disappointment.

Interpretation:

I have seen things that even blind people could see
(Even phisically inadequate ppl can see what's right & what's wrong; the basic ethics that ppl hold on to & that they often forget.)

Mechanically I am an entity of the tainted faction
(Automatically/naturally I am a part of the corrupted society that I see before me.)

Watching from the other side of the frail glass wall
(But somehow I refuse to join them and built a wall around myself. Still, the wall is fragile.)

Unconsciously linking to them in a diffused system
(Although I'm behind a wall, I'm still connected to the society in many ways.)

Unnecessarily forcing myself to comprehend them
(I somehow have to understand the society in order to fit in normally. But we all know, no understanding is actually needed to live in a society. It all comes naturally.)

I have heard truths that were once lies of the hopeful
(I hate rumors & gossips that are always enveloping my life. Especially ones that turned out to be real.)

Thoughts of the arcane are weaving unwanted dreams
(Thoughts of the unknown things & the unpredictable future are giving me nightmares.)

Defining truth as more than what the eye could see
(There are actually secrets behind everything. What you see isn't always true. What you don't see isn't always a lie.)

The redeemer of their conscience is yet to be seen
(The society don't even know their own ethics anymore.)

No soul is spared when He rain them with judgment
(Only God knows what's truly right & wrong. Ignorance is gonna lead to regrets.)

I have tasted poison that no other living could formulate
(I see things in a broader perspective & therefore it has made me suffer. Feels like the weight of the world is on my shoulders.)

Given upon me a blessing which is a curse in disguise
(Seeing everything in a broader perspective gives me a sense of responsibility that turned out to be a heavy burden to bear alone.)

They themselves unable to perforate my unwelcome sickness
(Ppl don't understand why I'm unable to socialize with other ppl. In other words, they don't understand why I'm anti-social sometimes.)

I only see them as nothing but victims of conscience
(I can't socialize with them because I judge them for their actions regarding conscience & also I'm afraid they would judge me on my actions of conscience too.)

And for that I had to eradicate myself from the faction
(I want to isolate myself from ppl.)

I have wandered beyond the boundary of existence
(I have thoughts of what's ought to be in life. I imagine situations where things are different than what they used to be or should be.)

A privilege is not given but it is acquired by will
(Being anti-social is nothing exclusive. The ability to see things in a broader perspective isn't a talent. It's all because I'm curious.)

It will neither make me superior nor invincible
(Being judgmental & anti-social doesn't give me the right to play God.)

There exists a black hole manifested by my conscience
(Because of my own conscience, I feel like I could implode at any time and cease to exist.)

Determine to surpass the routine of the curse
(In order to overcome the habit of becoming an anti-social, being too judgmental about society, & to survive,)

I have finally become a shadow of my own conviction
(I have no choice but to ignore my perceptions of the corrupted society & become a hypocrite.)


About the design: The red line represents me. The thick black line represents the society I live in. I'm already out of the faction.

Tools: Macromedia Fireworks 8, Adobe Photoshop CS
Textured Photo: My own collection

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